I thought I didn’t need this blog anymore, but whatever.
I am TERRIFIED.
I am terrified of trying to work things out.
I am terrified that things won’t work out.
I am terrified of having you in my life.
I am terrified of not having you in my life.
I am terrified of hurting T even more by trying to work things out.
I am terrified of not liking you.
I am terrified of you not liking me.
I am terrified of who I will become if I’m friends with you.
I am terrified I won’t stand up to you.
I am terrified I will never be happy around you.
I am terrified that our friendship will make me depressed again.
I am terrified that you will take over my life again, and I won’t have any other love to share with others.
I am terrified that I will never forgive you.
I am terrified that you will never forgive me.
I am terrified that things will be awkward.
I am terrified that you will never be who I want you to be.
I am terrified that I will never be who you want me to be.
I am terrified that you will be disappointed in me.
I am terrified that you will make me feel like shit.
I am terrified that you will treat me like shit.
I am terrified that you don’t care. That you won’t care. That you never cared.
I am terrified of losing you twice.
I am terrified of things never working out.
I am terrified. Of YOU.
Kathmandu, Nepal
Canoes from Up Above
Joanna Graham, Submitted by jgraham3
1) April Fool’s Day joke—Mike Landon!
2) Suicidal neighbor
3) best friend’s ex asking me to the spring formal/trying to kiss me
4) best friend’s ex giving me the cold shoulder
5) International festival!!!!
6) Random Koreans playing awesome music on bikes. Julia & I are going to go on their parade on Wednesday at 10 am.
7) Em’s sweet, lovely letter!!
8) I miss ST like no other right now.
